Owen turned One!!!!

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Davina –

Wow has time flown by! My baby is already a one year old! How can this be? It seems like just yesterday I was holding him in my arms for the first time. I was now a mother of two wonderful boys! And now my second child is starting to walk (with assistance) and crawl like a pro. Bobby and I like to call him “the bulldozer”, haha, when Owen is in the room- better watch out! He can get into anything if he sets his mind to it. I love to see his personality unfold. He is so independent, strong, smart, active, and adventurous. He is going to do so much in this life. My prayer for him though, is not that he will achieve greatness in the eyes of this world. But that he will achieve greatness in the eyes of the Lord. When it comes down to it, that is the main thing that matters. People can gain the whole world but what is that if you lose your soul? —

Lord God who made the heavens and the earth, what I want most in this life is to see my sons love You with their whole being. That they will do more for You than I was able to do. That you bless them with a heart that longs for righteousness. With You on their side they will be able to stand up from their enemies, they will be able to be a light in the darkness- to be the voice for those who have no voice. People will look at them and ponder at Your greatness. Let my two boys shine for you and do mighty things in this life. Please, give them the gift of eternal life. Save them.

As for me, Jesus, I ask that you give me the will to raise them right according to Your Word. Give me a love for You that is so strong that nothing can shake it. Mold my heart and change it so that when I am with my boys day in and day out I will naturally point them to You. My flesh is so weak and I am constantly fighting the urge to be angry or frustrated at these little minions that are always crawling and shouting all over me 24/7. Its hard being a stay at home mom. Its hard to daily without a break be sweet, patient, and understanding to a 2 year old and a 1 year old that can care less about my needs but only care about their own needs. My flesh says its impossible to fight my anger when I am drawn to the limit, but You are my Strong Tower. You are my Rock. I lean on the cross of calvary and I plead with You that You make me a new creation so I am able to stay strong against my flesh and love my boys with a heart that is filled with the fruit of the Spirit. Love, joy, peace, patients, goodness, kindness, and self-control. You are a good God and You give good things to those who ask. I love You, I love my boys, I love my life.

Amen

Published in: on May 29, 2014 at 8:38 am  Leave a Comment  
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My Life As It Is

My Life As It Is

Davina –

It has been almost a year since my last post! Ridiculous, I know. I will try harder to stay on top of my writings but no promises lol. Anyways, Here is a fast forward update on my life…we moved to Medford, Oregon when Owen was about 2.5 months old…..now he will be turning 1 this month! It makes my heart break to think how fast he is growing. I am literally obsessed with my chunk. Love him to pieces and am still in the way of thinking that he could do no wrong. Like, everything he does is cute. Then there is Harry lol. I LOVE my firstborn (just as much as Owen obviously) but age 2.5 is a lot harder than everyone says it is. Terrible twos is no joke! And what worries me is that all my Mommy friends say that 3 is WORSE! Ah! What in the world am I going to do?? Haha, but Bobby likes to tease me that I am getting pay back. Reason why is because, I confess, Harry is exactly like me. The things that he does that irritate me- I did (and do) the exact same things!! Hahaha…..Ive been realizing that Harry is not going to change and if I want to have a good relationship with him when he is older than I need to change fast. My prayer is for God to give me a calm spirit so I can handle stressful times with my child in a peaceful way. But motherhood definitely is a humbling experience. With just dealing with the day to day situations I become widely aware that I am no different than the worst sinner. Name the worst person who EVER existed……I can easily be an equal. The only difference is that I have Jesus in my life! He is what makes it even possible for me to be a “good” mom to my kids- if that. I strive daily to be more like Him and often I fail. I am a sinner and need Him constantly to guide me and help me throughout the day to survive! Haha. But, even though it is tough to be a mom. I would change it for nothing. My kids are my joy and they teach me so much!

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